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plaz-MAH ([personal profile] plazmah) wrote2008-05-13 03:58 pm
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And I’d Give Up Forever To Touch You

Title: Per Totus Mea Amor
Author: [livejournal.com profile] plazmah
Fandom(s): Bones
Pairing(s): Booth/Brennan
Rating: PG
Summary: As it all slips away Booth remembers what a happy night it's been up until this very moment.
Author's Notes: Spoilers for Wannabe In The Weeds. Unbetaed. ENJOY!

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It took a little bit of coaxing, but you got on stage in the end. Unafraid of the crowd, faced with that logic you hold so dear, how could you say no? I knew you wouldn’t, that’s why I brought the rest of the squints too. All of us need to cut loose more often, plus I hear Zack has an impressive set of pipes. Who would have thought?

The background music is cheesy and overly cheerful but the smoothness of your voice makes up for all of it. I knew you could sing, ever since you sang ‘Keep On Tryin’ to me months ago, so I’m not surprised by how amazing you sound. But the sparkle in your eyes, I don’t think I’ve ever seen something like that before. I know you’re up there remembering the life of a young girl with boundless hopes and dreams, who was loved so dearly by her family. I can see that happiness radiating on your face as you sing for your new family, all the people who care about you, and you don’t have a care in the world. I can’t stop smiling, you’ve captivated me, and I don’t think I’ve ever seen you so alive and beautiful.

I already know I’ve fallen in love with you, even though I try to hide it. But tonight I can't hide the way I feel. The look on my face speaks for itself... I can't see anything but you, spinning and dancing in the spotlight.

Maybe if I had been paying attention to anything else, I would have noticed her sooner. But it doesn't matter, really; I'd put my life on the line for you no matter what. I hear the second gunshot, I see the gun in your hands. You've killed for me once more. How many times are you going to save me?

The bullet burns inside my chest and I feel your cheek against mine, the tremor in your voice that was singing so clearly just seconds ago. You're still all I can see, all I want to see. I want to hold on, to wipe the terror from your eyes. I should have been more careful about her, then you never would have been in danger. I have no one to blame but myself for this. I want to tell you to tell my son I love him, but I don't have the strength to speak.

The bullet burns and makes it hard to stay here, awake with the chaos and panic and the fear written across your face. It's getting harder to breathe. The darkness is creeping across my vision.

But as long as you're safe, Bones, I think I'll die a happy man.

--end--

[identity profile] made-of-toast.livejournal.com 2008-05-13 08:32 pm (UTC)(link)
This is wonderful... I hope he doesn't die! D:

[identity profile] ccgig.livejournal.com 2008-05-13 08:55 pm (UTC)(link)
I really hope he's OK

[identity profile] tempertemper77.livejournal.com 2008-05-13 09:49 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh Booth! This is lovely. Just watched the ep *is still shaking*

(Anonymous) 2008-05-13 09:50 pm (UTC)(link)
It's a nice story...though it's nice knowing your ending isn't the same as the one on the show.
ext_2333: "That's right,  people, I am a constant surprise." (Default)

[identity profile] makd.livejournal.com 2008-05-14 12:49 am (UTC)(link)
Good one.
ext_50: Amrita Rao (Pretty Preity)

[identity profile] plazmah.livejournal.com 2008-05-14 01:36 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks!

[identity profile] buffyangellvr23.livejournal.com 2008-05-14 03:16 am (UTC)(link)
wow nice...but yeah it's nice knowing it doesn't end that way on the show.

[identity profile] http://users.livejournal.com/_missmargaret_/ 2008-05-14 03:48 am (UTC)(link)
This was lovely. Heartbreaking, but completely lovely.

You're still all I can see, all I want to see.
I really love how you described those last few seconds of the show in this line. Absolutely stunning! :)

ext_50: Amrita Rao (Gillian Anderson)

[identity profile] plazmah.livejournal.com 2008-05-14 01:35 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you!

[identity profile] her-lovelyheart.livejournal.com 2008-05-14 04:42 am (UTC)(link)
Omg, wow, that's perfect. And so in character. I can totally see those thoughts running through Booth's end.

The background music is cheesy and overly cheerful but the smoothness of your voice makes up for all of it. I knew you could sing, ever since you sang ‘Keep On Tryin’ to me months ago, so I’m not surprised by how amazing you sound. But the sparkle in your eyes, I don’t think I’ve ever seen something like that before. I know you’re up there remembering the life of a young girl with boundless hopes and dreams, who was loved so dearly by her family. I can see that happiness radiating on your face as you sing for your new family, all the people who care about you, and you don’t have a care in the world. I can’t stop smiling, you’ve captivated me, and I don’t think I’ve ever seen you so alive and beautiful.

I already know I’ve fallen in love with you, even though I try to hide it. But tonight I can't hide the way I feel. The look on my face speaks for itself... I can't see anything but you, spinning and dancing in the spotlight.

I absolutely positively LOVE this part. One of my FAVORITE things about that last scene [and I've been watching it over and over and OVER AGAIN!] is Booth's face. He's grinning and laughing and how he holds up that lighter in adoration and ust his smile... he is so captivated by her, so enamored by her up there on that stage, it's all over his face how much he's in love with her! Seeing that just makes me GRIN MY FACE OFF.

Of course, after that, that's when things get ugly. =[ Booth is amazing. GOD. When he turned and was hit... omgggggggg, omg, OMG. OMG. I just... I had no words! Thank goodness Bones was there and she shot Pam, thank goodness. Her being over Booth and their gripped hands, so so so so powerful! The camera and lighting effects were amazing, goodness.

IS IT MONDAY YET?! GOSH!!!!!!!!!!!

Again, brilliant piece of work here. Simple but so perfect! ♥
ext_50: Amrita Rao (havemercy: dance in grey matter)

[identity profile] plazmah.livejournal.com 2008-05-14 01:34 pm (UTC)(link)
Wow, thanks for the massive feedback! :)

[identity profile] crazyhyper24-7.livejournal.com 2008-07-08 08:49 pm (UTC)(link)
uhhhh... Are you going by the show? If you arn't I'm going to kill you! Just a warning . great fic.